Hello, my name is Nicole. And I’m so happy we’re here again together today.
I want to take a moment to acknowledge your progress and your courage for showing up for yourself today. It isn’t always easy, but it’s almost always worth it.
Let’s begin by getting into a comfortable position. As always, you may either sit or lie down. Do whatever feels right for you.
Let’s start by taking a few deep breaths together. I want you to inhale through your nose deeply. Hold your breath and count 1,2,3,4,5 ; 1,2,3,4,5 inhale 1,2,3,4,5, exhale 1,2,3,4,5.
I want you to start thinking about all the things your eating disorder has told you that you can do. Maybe it says you can’t eat that. You can’t wear that. You can’t take that risk you’ve always wanted to take you can’t enjoy that vacation or that conversation with friends. You can’t be trusted when you’re alone.
Does it also tell you that you can’t be happy that you can’t be loved or worthy of good things? So many camps. So much suffering? Do you feel that suffering anywhere in your body where what’s tight right now.
Take a deep breath and soft in your body a bit more. Just feel it sink into the ground or chair beneath you. Today we’re going to focus on self compassion. Self compassion is the act of giving yourself grace and forgiveness. It is one of the highest forms of self respect.
Although many of us struggle to implement it. And yet, you are an entirely unique human. There is nobody on this planet just like you. You are irreplaceable. Undoubtedly special and worthy.
I want you to affirm yourself right now. I have every right to love myself. Again, I have every right to love myself. Imagine what this love could really feel like. Imagine it flowing through you pumping through your veins breathing new life into you.
Imagine I have every right to love myself. your eating disorder is not selfish. It is not a matter of willpower. You are not defective or broken because of your struggles. You are not a burden our problem.
When we hold on to those negative thoughts, it can feel impossible to practice self compassion. And we live in a world that often makes self compassion difficult. We are expected to do more, to be better to live perfectly. It can feel like you’re running on a treadmill as hard as you can and still going nowhere. You just feel breathless and tired. Wondering where this all leads.
Take a deep breaths. Inhale a word that feels good. Oh strange kind This learning generous. Any word that you feel can describe any word that characterizes your inherent goodness. And as you exhale, breathe out any word that feels toxic or cruel, ugly, fat, stupid, unsuccessful.
The words that come to mind right now are the words you probably tell yourself often. I want you to imagine releasing them into the universe. One exhale at a time. Let the universe Take them away from you. Let’s take another deep breath.
Imagine yourself walking into a big room. It is all white, completely there. Stand there for a moment just feeling how empty it all is. Now, imagine that you can put everything you love in their furniture, hang up art or photographs on the walls.
Add some plants if you want a range of favorite trinkets or special mementos. Just spend a few breaths decorating and organizing making you in this pleasant and beautiful as you want it to be.
Now imagine yourself sitting down in the room. Look around at all you have built. This is your safe room. It is where I want you to take yourself when you are feeling down or insecure, or scared.
This is the room where you invite joy and love into your world. This room is where you create a new life. You can practice new ways of self compassion. But in this room, you must love yourself. Sit there and feel that feel that love flow through you right now.
Notice any sensations in your body and just acknowledge them. acknowledge your body for keeping you alive and well right now. You have a body that loves you unconditionally. Imagine what loving it unconditionally could feel like. In this room, you do love your body unconditionally.
Your body and mind are masterpieces here. your eating disorder is not allowed in this room. It cannot survive here. Because an eating disorder cannot exist with true self compassion. This room is your sanctuary. You may come here as often as you need redecorated whenever you see fit.
In this room, you have unlimited time and resources. You have complete abundance. Let’s take another deep breath and through the nose, out through the mouth.
Please take a moment and visualize yourself walking out of the room. Closing the door behind you. Just settle into your current body. letting this feeling of self compassion wash over your skin, your eyes, your hands, your feet. Maybe it feels like a warmth rising and within you protecting you.
Enjoy that feeling for as long as you need. I am so grateful you showed up for yourself today.
Remember, there’s always a perfect room waiting for you. You can open the store at any time.
One more deep breath in. Deep breath out. This concludes our practice today. I hope the rest of your day is filled with self compassion.
”You can practice new ways of self compassion. But in this room, you must love yourself. Sit there and feel that feel that love flow through you right now.